omg yes this is literally me two years ago. the relationship thing especially hit hard. I was like why is everything I worked for suddenly feeling so wrong??

I promise it does get better. the stuff you build AFTER the return actually feels like yours. hang in there

What you're describing is textbook Saturn return and honestly? You're handling it better than most people do.

Saturn is the planet of structure, responsibility, and long-term foundations. When it returns to its natal position around age 27-30, it essentially audits everything you've built — your career, relationships, living situation, identity. Anything that was built on shaky foundations or someone else's expectations tends to fall away.

The fact that your changes feel RIGHT despite being terrifying is the key thing. Saturn isn't here to punish you — it's here to align you. The discomfort you're feeling is the difference between who you were told to be and who you actually are.

For resources, I'd honestly suggest looking into your natal Saturn sign and house. That tells you the specific AREA of life Saturn is teaching you about. Your Saturn sign is where your biggest lessons live.